△Life is a road of misery

misery-times when you always feel alone even though you are with someone, no one seems to cares and understand how you feel.

valentines day is coming and guess what? I'm spending it alone, when I was with you, I use to think that I could spend my birthday, Christmas, new year, Chinese new year, your birthday, valentines day and every month together, but I was wrong, those wishful hopings were just great disappointment, everytime I think of the past with you, my tears will start to roll down my cheeks, you know why? cause until now I still can't forget, it's seems like my heart is still holding on, and I find it so wasted to just end it off like that. we used to quarrel and fight over small matters, get back and done with it. but a small quarrel could lead into breakups.
people always thought, 'aiya, small quarrel only ma, nothing will happen de' but do you know that a small quarrel could turn into unhappiness, breakups, regrets. it's just a small quarrel, but it has a large impact, things that people thought wont happen, and it's only cause by a small matter.
but when it comes to a big matter; quarrel and arguments, reaction of people 'oh shit, what am I suppose to do, i was really wrong, I shouldnt have done that' these may also lead to breakups, but it helps to improve on relationships.
everything has its pros and cons. it depends on what you chose. since I choose to walk onto a road of misery, I will walk till the end.
if you ask me, have I ever been happy, my answer will be , no. everytime when I start to be happy, the sadness guilt will start to come in and you will see a big change in my emotions, i feel so tight, it's like I have never been free-ed, and maybe the day when I'm free-ed is the day when I know how to be happy and lean to let go. so, people, remember to stay happy always, remember that everything you do, you have to pay the price for it. remember that whatever you do in life, never chose the path that you will regret, think twice before you act or say anything.