after everything you said, it really kills me, i no longer think that we were meant to be together, i dont know why do i need to keep holding on.
you will never know how much i cried for you, never know how much i give in and did for you, you will never know.
it was my fault to make you so tired, but do you think i even wanted too? i feel so disappointed in myself that i cant keep promises i keep breaking it, but i never did meant too. its hard. they are your friend, so am i their friend.
you only know how to push all the blame to me, what about your friend? you dont find fault at them? you wont! i am tired of all these, so do you. you giving up so easily...i really am disappointed in you.
maybe its better for me to leave, maybe its better fot me to end everything, i am tired of crying myself to sleep, tired of every single thing. then can i ask you, where are you when i needed you the most? answer is that you are always with your friends enjoying, at lan gaming. everyday i look at the mirror wishing that one day everything will change, everything would turn out different, but it never see to be coming through.
i took all the blame, your friends, mine and yours, i never did one time say anything, i even let you lecture, put everything in the risk of ending, do you know how much it hurts? maybe it was me who brought everything upon.
but can you put yourself in my shoes?
when its really time, i wont say a thing and leave.