one month, its keep chanting in my mind one month, one month, one month, and it seems like i can go mad anything, i am crying every single day, but there is nothing i can do to ease the pain, crying no longer helps, now i start to bite myself, work myself to sorrow till i cant feel anything but it isnt helpful at all, friends told me not to think about it, stay strong and cheer up.
but i cant, i am a weak duckling...
i told myself its not worth crying, that i should stay strong and be happy, and not to think about it, but i cant! what else you want me to do?
i dont want to wish and hope anymore, cause in the end of the day disappointment will come.
i'm crying to myself, my heart is bleeding, i never felt so hurt before...i still remember every word you said, i said i want to break, but you told me its because its boring and keep holding on, i am letting go, yet all these dont want to end, hey! you see! decision is made by we human and not nature, we are the one we holds it, you said were drifting apart, but you think i want it? i am trying my best, all the hurt that this relationship has cause is the one that caused it to drift. yeah! so what you said those i love you were fake? i really dont know, only you can answer it.
maybe a one month break is a good thing, maybe its not. taking a break from each other and start a new is a good thing, but one month without each other, how will you feel? some say that it hurts, that the both parties will come to a point to understand how much they need each other, but i dont know. i am confused, i cant think straight, i comr get to a point to calm myself dowb and think about everything, whenever there is a stuff, place or whatever that reminds me off you, i start to tear, even reading your msg over and over again, made me tear too. it reminds me of how sweet you were in the past, how much you use to care and dote, have you all forgotten?
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