2Ds.

Denial and disappointment. 

"I'm just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a maze, love is a riddle." 

It all ended just by the words 'feelings fade'.

It can neither be salvage nor turned back. 

Yes, if you want me to move on, I can. It's truth that it isn't hard for me to move on. 

Expectation lead to disappointment. 

I'm not going to hate or get angry. I don't see a point in all that. I'm just super disappointed with you for what you said you wouldn't turn out to be. 

I don't know what exactly is the reason, but all I know that it isn't that simple. 

I don't want to point fingers at anyone. 

I can't deny I miss you neither I could deny that I miss having you by my side. 

I accepted the fact. 

But reality hurts. 

I drink, cut and cry so that I could ease the pain. 

I don't need you to get worried, because you wouldn't care anymore. 

I clearly know, that if I collapse, I collapse for starving and trying to hurt myself. 

Silly right? 

But it's getting harder to be happy as we grow older. 

I explained, you assumed. 

I tried to solve, you went walking away. 

Next,

I moved on, you regret? 

Is that what is going to happen? 

I fake a smile, act like everything is okay, but it's honestly tearing me apart.