Dedication to Valentine ♥

Hello Bbg!  ♥
its been like coming 6 years that we knew each other and our date is  12022010 ♡

Thanks for being there for me when I needed someone, although nowadays we hardly talk otp, and meet up ( thanks to those busy schedule) :( but, I can't explain how much I love you. 

Tbh, you are the person which understand me in and out, the person who stick through with me during my ups and downs, someone that I could rely on, and still standing strong together. :') 

The only person that I could act all retarded with.

Haha, it's sad that we are now in different school, and we really regretted this choice. :( 

If not we could meet each other everyday, study together, help each other out, and not suffer so much now. 

Babe, I know that you have been writing letters and lyrics for me, but I really didn't have much time to do those, and it's been a long, very long time since I wrote letters for you, and took pictures with you. So, here I am, dedicating this blog post to you to make up for the months of missing letters ><

I also feel bad that I think I didn't celebrate you birthday with a cake this year :/ but nevermind, you know I will make it up to you, hehe! :p 

Lets work hard for N's and go into the same school together, no matter what! :)

This photo is super overdue! >< the more recent one is in the other phone :( 

Bbg! Lets meet up for a study date, movie date, food date, and ktv date soon okay? ♡

Hehe! I love you very very very much :* (how many very also not enough) 

Loves. xx. 

2Ds.

Denial and disappointment. 

"I'm just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a maze, love is a riddle." 

It all ended just by the words 'feelings fade'.

It can neither be salvage nor turned back. 

Yes, if you want me to move on, I can. It's truth that it isn't hard for me to move on. 

Expectation lead to disappointment. 

I'm not going to hate or get angry. I don't see a point in all that. I'm just super disappointed with you for what you said you wouldn't turn out to be. 

I don't know what exactly is the reason, but all I know that it isn't that simple. 

I don't want to point fingers at anyone. 

I can't deny I miss you neither I could deny that I miss having you by my side. 

I accepted the fact. 

But reality hurts. 

I drink, cut and cry so that I could ease the pain. 

I don't need you to get worried, because you wouldn't care anymore. 

I clearly know, that if I collapse, I collapse for starving and trying to hurt myself. 

Silly right? 

But it's getting harder to be happy as we grow older. 

I explained, you assumed. 

I tried to solve, you went walking away. 

Next,

I moved on, you regret? 

Is that what is going to happen? 

I fake a smile, act like everything is okay, but it's honestly tearing me apart.