yes. insecure.
nobody ever made me felt secure.
my parents. my friends. my boyfriend. my ex.
some people say im pretty, while some say im ugly.
who to believe?
i look at the mirror, this is what i feel.
the reasons for me to being insecure,
there is so many thing. and if you understand my past, you will understand how feel.
name callings. criticise. pulling down. laughing stock.
do you understand?
being called fat, short, ugly. do you think i want it that way, im born that way, what can i do?
i wish that i was perfect, but no one is perfect, i wanna be tall, skinny, pretty, and like every other girl.
dont you hate this?
just because they didnt think it that way, thats why they dont understand, because they think that they are perfect and start putting people down but
when you realise that you are not the pretty one among your bestfriend/boyfriend, you will start to overthink.
and because i understand all this, because of all this bullshits, i often wonder and feel,
im just tired of everything.
its because i dont show my emotions, but that doesnt mean that im happy, its just because i keep every single little thoughts and feelings within myself, its just because i didnt show. just because im nice to bully and disturb but that doesnt mean that i could be bullied forever, that doesnt mean that i wont breakdown. if one day you were to be in the same shoe as me, you would feel this way too. i just kept quiet.
i just keep rethinking and thinking and thinking.
my mood could just be like rollarcoaster. but once im alone, i start to be like this.
its because i know too much things that i didnt wish to know, its because too many things cant be hide away from me, its because i find all ways to escape, but i still couldnt.
all this things make me overthink, but i just cant do anything.
all my life i never felt secure. i just wish too be.
