i lost you. i lost him. i lost everybody. i'm living alone. i'm leaving soon. the pain is hurting more then i thought. its taking my life away, but its okay. everything is impossible, i cant changed it anymore. i just vented everything out on you yesterday, but it doesnt matter anymore. when you left, i felt the sudden blow and the pain i felt once. i love you. i need you. i miss you. but it doesnt matter anymore. i'm crying my heart out once again. the pain can be ease. its so hard to climb up again. i'm fallen. i cant take it anymore. i thought everything was different. i thought i found the right one. but thanks to me, i caused everything. thanks to me, i got hurt, i wasted your time. i'm scared. i know i not a good girl, i chose to let you go. chose to let you find someone better. i wont bring you happiness. go find someone better. someone that is worth you love. the pain and hurt that i'm suffering is nothing, its okay.