because nobody will ever know how one feel, i guess, i about to snap, but who knows? NOBODY!

my head, my mind, there is so many things, my heart it seems like there is a stone pressing on it and it is making me feel breathless, my heartbeat increased every now and then, i started getting worried every now and then, i am really really scared, but do you know, i am living in fear every single day, i couldnt enjoy myself, it seems like there is no freedom at all, i am falling sick, yet i cant, sometimes i wonder am i still important to you? there is so many times i tried to hold back my tears, infront of you, infront of my friends, but somehow it seems to tear by itself. nobody knows how much my heart is crying for help, it is bleeding, bleeding, it cant be stopped. everytime i thought that my smile could last for the whole day, but  i was wrong, it couldnt last, i was just putting on a fake smile every single day, why couldnt anybody understand me?